HELLO WORLD.

Hello loved one,

Its been forever since I posted, well not literally but I have missed you and missed sharing my thoughts and views with all of you. However, guess what? I am back. ☺☺

Maybe most of you might be wondering where I have been? or not... hehehe but just to set the records straight. I have been around and well (or so I Believe), why I haven't been posting frequently? Why I haven't been posting?  ( we will revise the frequent part later) is cause I have been facing very many challenges; yeah, yeah, everyone has their own fair share, but this time I was really beaten. 

It was serious that I started avoiding almost everyone I know, and would stay away from friends whom I thought do not respect me, or just don't appreciate me enough. I was kind of looking for consolidation in all the wrong places instead of  turning to God. This did not help much you know, I somehow found myself alone. The enemy had succeed in secluding me from everyone I knew. I do not want to imagine what he could have done with me, because during this time I found it hard to pray, all I could do is ask God why me? which was not really helping. I found myself super tired and fatigued all the time because I was carrying burdens that the Lord had relieved from me long ago on the cross when He took it all.

We should all be grateful for friends or  people who intercede and pray for us, even when we have not opened up to them about our situations and struggles. what really helped me (this I must say) are friends who just do not give up, friends who can tell when you have not been praying or when something is wrong with you both physically and spiritually, friends who give you a shoulder to cry on, or better yet friends who cry with you.

Deuteronomy 31:8 says  "The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."

 

This verse was in my mind and it reminded me that the Lord Jesus Christ is always ready to receive us any time, with His arms wide open. He came and died for us on the cross. Oh! what a greater LOVE this is. I have been with wedding fever where I get ecstatic just to think of the man I will say I do to, but it hit me (still hits me) that no one can have such greater love than HE did for all of us. such a greater LOVE that even while we were still sinners (coz we have all sinned) HE still loved us so much.

Romans 5:8 But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Y'all stay safe, let's seek the Lord Jesus Christ with all our hearts because HE is all that matters.

HE found me.❤❤❤

HOW HARD AM I TRYING?

Busy? This word is just an understatement in my life; it’s about that time another word was discovered. However the fact that there is life in abundance is enough to keep us going and thanking God for His unending LOVE.

These past few days’ activities have revived me spiritually and physically. Well, it all began when I felt like I have distanced myself from Christ yet I needed to have that intimate relationship with Him and worship without caring who’s watching me or what people around me will say, pray without thinking if the next person is listening to what I am saying to my daddy. I was in this fellowship but in my head, I was just thinking how I need to stop getting distracted each time I am having a moment with God. Here is the interesting bit, after the fellowship people get involved in little talks before leaving; now I found myself among a group of three friends. Guess what we started talking about? Intimacy with Christ!!! Can you believe that? That was quick daddy… that was quick. I mean He answered me immediately; we had some serious DMC (deep meaningful conversations) that answered almost all my questions, He is indeed faithful and very awesome.

Let’s get back on track, I love movies (I mean who doesn’t?)  so a friend of mine asked me to watch this Christian movie and I was thinking how I don’t have time for movies right now and I’d probably watch it at the end of this semester. I don’t know how things worked out but I watched it (unplanned). This was a life changing moment for me, and I was left answering so many questions about my life in general. Wueeeh!

So now, the one question I would love us to ask ourselves is HOW HARD AM I TRYING? It could be you are born again and still holding on to that addiction (claiming it’s so hard to stop, the Lord understands my situation, I am trying to stop)  how hard are you trying to overcome it, how hard are you trying to love that friend who hurt you and it feels so hard to forgive them? How hard are you trying to reflect Christ in your daily life? I mean, are you afraid that you will lose your friends? Maybe they will think you are too spiritual.

It’s okay, maybe you just don’t take this Jesus thingy seriously, but dint He take it seriously when He died on the cross for you? (John 3:16.) Yes! He did. So how hard are you trying? Are you trying to give your life to Christ but it seems impossible, how hard have you tried? That drug addict that you avoid lest you fall into bad company, have you told them about Christ? And prayed for them? Have you tried talking to that friend who’s facing a number of challenges just to encourage them in Christ? Or you are thankful that it’s not happening to you. That girl who sleeps around and you are happy you have self-control, have you talked to them about it? Or its none of your business?

Oh, I could write down hundreds of questions that I had(still have) in my mind, but it would make no difference if you are not trying hard enough, hard enough to stand for the Truth, the word of God, hard enough to reach out, hard enough to help and be Kind, hard enough to stand UNASHAMED.

#UnAshamed

Pssssst….. The movie is I'm not ashamed 2016, but do not watch it expecting to have the same effect it did on me; we get ministered to in very many different ways.

YOU ARE LOVED…………

ITS A NEW YEAR !!

Hey there, it’s already a new year from here (don’t you start thinking a lot) am at my favorite place MY BED!! and I chose writing instead of counting the number of squares on my ceiling, it’s kinda boring now since I know where each should be and they can’t misbehave when I am around.

The new year’s celebration reminded me of when I was a little pretty kid (I grew up, in case you are wondering…. WHAT HAPPENED?????) and I would wish that there could be a noticeable change or difference at the beginning of each year. Maybe different colors, what if 2016 was pink and then 2017 changes to blue or maybe it could have been the weather from sunny to rainy annually, so that people can actually see it’s a new BEGINNING.

2016 has been a great year for me, I started blogging (rarely though, but at least I still do), I made friends this wasn’t an easy step for me, too bad that I also lost some, I went swimming (woohoo) however I chocked once, and it was a very bad experience because I couldn’t breathe for almost 2 minutes and I knew my day has come, but Hello! The Lord saved me, I turned a year older (so did 
everyone) but most importantly I learnt a few things. (next paragraph, please)

I learnt how it feels to trust in the Lord, because I trusted in Him, it’s not easy at least I know it 
wasn’t for me. You get those second thoughts and doubts but He always is faithful, I also learnt what it means to have friends and not acquaintances. Friends who pray with and for you when your spirit is too low and you feel like there is no way out, friends who cry for you and genuinely rejoice in your success, I also learnt that your timing doesn’t always have to be Gods timing. (remember Lazarus’ story? He might seem late/early to you but he is ever on time.)

Let’s all have a HAPPY NEW YEAR full of Gods blessings and guidance but let’s not forget those resolutions we have jotted down, let’s have a NEW us in this NEW YEAR and let’s be willing to allow God to work in our lives more than before.

IT'S BEEN A MINUTE.

"I have not been posting for a while now, this is a post I wrote months ago and when I was about to post it, the laptop just blacked out. I also do not know how and why, just in case you are wondering. So today I open my blog and I still find it there, no single word altered. Guess its a call for me to get back to writing........................... Have a read *smiley*."


                       

Hello everyone,

I’m looking for a different sentence to begin with other than the usual “it’s been a while”, drop any comments below. Hoping you have been great, I have been doing good aaaaaaaaaaaaand I am excited about this post, it was supposed to be up a few days ago, but funny how so many things came up. I have been praying for the patience and joy of the Lord for a long time, and it came through. I could have been posting this while angry and mad (I call it mangry), but I’m all smiles now. *sigh* I don’t know where to begin from, but LETS DO THIS!!

I have had esteem issues since way back; I always thought everyone else is better than me and that I am not good enough. This affected me so much that I couldn’t even make friends, because I always felt intimidated. (It’s a long story, so I’mma cut it short to get to today’s topic however someday I’ll post all about it.) so, fast-forward till when I got born again * ahem, it’s just juzi* and I met this super crazy friends, who kinda helped get me out of my cocoon, stretched my wings and taught me how to fly. It wasn’t easy though. The problem with having a low-self-esteem is you want to be like everyone else, giving them a chance to control you however they want.

Why am I posting this? I’m not really sure, but I hope it gets to someone out there who is so much struggling to fit in someone else's shoe, someone who dislikes herself because everyone says negative things about them. “your eyes are too big”, “what’s wrong with your nails?”, “watch out you are growing fat” “you just aint that pretty” and so much more. I’ve heard this and many more but here is a word for you, for I am FEARFULLY and WONDERFULLY made, marvelous are thy works. (KJV) psalms 139.14

Once I was mad at people, everyone who didn't like me, or they thought I should lose some weight, or get some fake nails to look good. I got so mangry, and I was thinking why is it that no one ever walks up to a skinny girl *very skinny* and ask them “hey, are you having enough food to eat?” then I realized I had let this people control me, my life revolved around them. All I ever thought about is what would they think I look like? What would they want me to do? and so many questions.

Human beings can be so insensitive, I remember a longtime friend once texted me blankly “long time, hope you good, however I don’t like how you look so big nowadays do something about it”. …………………………………………………………… I was shocked for days; started starving myself and I suddenly felt ten times bigger hahaha, and so many more friends wrote to me, did they plan about it? Maybe it was true I dint look good. Am I too ugly now? Will I ever get a husband (this was the main issue btw) hihihi.

Cheeeeeeeeiiiii * afrocinema* I learnt to be me, accept me and love me just as I am. I look in the mirror and smile. To you out there who feels ugly, not good enough, intimidated and all that. Rise , and hold your chin up. Do not let anyone live for you, accept the flaws you think you may have, look in the mirror and step away in confidence. Recognize your true value and self-worth. NEVER change who you are to please anyone and do not depend on the approval of a man, or anyone else to know that you are BEAUTIFUL.

 However, this is not a go ahead for anyone to live an unhealthy life, eat healthy and stay healthy, see ya'll on my next post :).

 And God saw every thing that He had made, and, behold, it was very good. (KJV). Genesis 1.31

BUTTERFLIES

Lucky me today, my class ended earlier giving me time to post. It has been a struggle, each time I purpose to write something comes up and I keep on postponing. so today I have blocked everything out of my mind, all those assignments, meetings and cats to read for they should wait.

Now, of late I have been feeling low in my spirit and I had purposed to shut this blog down, till a friend approached me and she was like, “hey tsup, you have not posted anything new of late?” I dint have any excuse so I just stared at her blankly and she kept saying how she gets inspired a lot. I was shocked, I mean?? Seeing someone encourage you and rejoice in what you do is a blessing, as I was walking saying a thank you prayer to God, my phone rings. Guess whose calling……………….? Big brother and he tells me how I’m doing a good thing and asks lotsa stuff that are expected of him. Love you bro*hitting my chest*, ulinitouch. These two incidents brought sense back into my head so here I am again.

Well, this post is just full of ‘mushene’, but I hope you still get something from this. It all began more than a year ago when she opened up to me about her crush on this guy. Crushes are interesting and I must say I have enjoyed the ride. In the beginning it was worse; she couldn’t eat anything nor sleep until she took it to the Lord in prayers. Now mark that point, where she took it to the Lord. Yes! I know it may sound absurd to tell the Lord such stuff but it shouldn’t, coz after that there was so much peace around and within her.It wasn’t easy for me though coz everything around us somehow had his name. That’s something I haven’t understood until today, I would have loved to give you examples but you never know he might read this and I don’t want to lose a friend.     

So one weekend we walk into a fellowship and the preacher (Rev. Hope Blackwell) is speaking about singleness, just the right thing we needed to hear as single ladies. So the preacher (a woman of the Lord I love so much) was using the story of Ruth, and how she was serving the Lord still in her singleness. In her singleness she was complete and contended, and that’s when the Lord brought her and Boaz together. She was explaining how after the death of Ruth’s husband, she dint leave her mother-in-law (Naomi). It’s like Ruth aliona this woman has been left with no children how will she survive? Or maybe how will she overcome all the loneliness? She sacrificed going back to her people (maybe get another husband say goodbye to singleness, have pretty babies. Now I know that’s probably what we always want) but she dint, she did not feel incomplete, she didn’t feel like being with her mother-in-law will remind her of her gone husband. Instead she decided to put her past and her pain behind to serve the Lord, and also look after Naomi.

I will use my friends’ story to explain the other part because I have the permission to and because I hope you’ll understand things better from that angle. This other part is all about creating an idol and a spirit husband. Now if you remember me telling you the agony I went through when everything had this guy’s name, that’s exactly how spiritual husbands are made. In my friends head this guy was the one, whether he is born again or not, he has to be the one. So it’s like she was already dating only that the guy dint know about it yet. Every single part of her world was occupied by this guy, now this drew her far away from God; she had made for herself a mini god. This is what the devil likes and he uses this opportunity, where you feel you need a guy, a boyfriend, a husband. Where you are so busy feeling lonely and searching for that guy that you forget about your ministry work and you stop reading the bible that he brings you a counterfeit.

Yes, you will rejoice, start dating and before you know it you are walking down the aisle with him. Even though he doesn’t have the characteristics of a Godly man, you convince yourself that you can change him and bring him to the light. Life gets tough, you can’t handle it anymore. Then you start asking what happened? Now most guys start hating on God and they forget they did not even seek Gods counsel when they went for the first date. They wanted him ( their escape goat from single-hood) to be the one, I agree at some point single life sucks but He (the Lord) is always there to comfort us. For you to meet that person that he meant for you, first of all feel complete and know that in your singleness you can still serve the Lord. Second of all, serve God, in truth and in spirit and be at the place of God. Strengthen your relationship with God. Third, be content in your circumstance as a single person and always seek God in everything you do.

This has to be the longest post I have ever wrote, and the great thing about it is, I don’t feel like stopping. Information is just flowing in my head and I feel like typing but, let me get back to my normal life. I know a few people who have missed me already (kujichocha), see you next time. I have totally nothing to do with the title of this post, I don't even know how they are related, a friend just suggested it.

Gods peace.