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Lucky me today, my class ended earlier giving me time to post. It has been a struggle, each time I purpose to write something comes up and I keep on postponing. so today I have blocked everything out of my mind, all those assignments, meetings and cats to read for they should wait.

Now, of late I have been feeling low in my spirit and I had purposed to shut this blog down, till a friend approached me and she was like, “hey tsup, you have not posted anything new of late?” I dint have any excuse so I just stared at her blankly and she kept saying how she gets inspired a lot. I was shocked, I mean?? Seeing someone encourage you and rejoice in what you do is a blessing, as I was walking saying a thank you prayer to God, my phone rings. Guess whose calling……………….? Big brother and he tells me how I’m doing a good thing and asks lotsa stuff that are expected of him. Love you bro*hitting my chest*, ulinitouch. These two incidents brought sense back into my head so here I am again.

Well, this post is just full of ‘mushene’, but I hope you still get something from this. It all began more than a year ago when she opened up to me about her crush on this guy. Crushes are interesting and I must say I have enjoyed the ride. In the beginning it was worse; she couldn’t eat anything nor sleep until she took it to the Lord in prayers. Now mark that point, where she took it to the Lord. Yes! I know it may sound absurd to tell the Lord such stuff but it shouldn’t, coz after that there was so much peace around and within her.It wasn’t easy for me though coz everything around us somehow had his name. That’s something I haven’t understood until today, I would have loved to give you examples but you never know he might read this and I don’t want to lose a friend.     

So one weekend we walk into a fellowship and the preacher (Rev. Hope Blackwell) is speaking about singleness, just the right thing we needed to hear as single ladies. So the preacher (a woman of the Lord I love so much) was using the story of Ruth, and how she was serving the Lord still in her singleness. In her singleness she was complete and contended, and that’s when the Lord brought her and Boaz together. She was explaining how after the death of Ruth’s husband, she dint leave her mother-in-law (Naomi). It’s like Ruth aliona this woman has been left with no children how will she survive? Or maybe how will she overcome all the loneliness? She sacrificed going back to her people (maybe get another husband say goodbye to singleness, have pretty babies. Now I know that’s probably what we always want) but she dint, she did not feel incomplete, she didn’t feel like being with her mother-in-law will remind her of her gone husband. Instead she decided to put her past and her pain behind to serve the Lord, and also look after Naomi.

I will use my friends’ story to explain the other part because I have the permission to and because I hope you’ll understand things better from that angle. This other part is all about creating an idol and a spirit husband. Now if you remember me telling you the agony I went through when everything had this guy’s name, that’s exactly how spiritual husbands are made. In my friends head this guy was the one, whether he is born again or not, he has to be the one. So it’s like she was already dating only that the guy dint know about it yet. Every single part of her world was occupied by this guy, now this drew her far away from God; she had made for herself a mini god. This is what the devil likes and he uses this opportunity, where you feel you need a guy, a boyfriend, a husband. Where you are so busy feeling lonely and searching for that guy that you forget about your ministry work and you stop reading the bible that he brings you a counterfeit.

Yes, you will rejoice, start dating and before you know it you are walking down the aisle with him. Even though he doesn’t have the characteristics of a Godly man, you convince yourself that you can change him and bring him to the light. Life gets tough, you can’t handle it anymore. Then you start asking what happened? Now most guys start hating on God and they forget they did not even seek Gods counsel when they went for the first date. They wanted him ( their escape goat from single-hood) to be the one, I agree at some point single life sucks but He (the Lord) is always there to comfort us. For you to meet that person that he meant for you, first of all feel complete and know that in your singleness you can still serve the Lord. Second of all, serve God, in truth and in spirit and be at the place of God. Strengthen your relationship with God. Third, be content in your circumstance as a single person and always seek God in everything you do.

This has to be the longest post I have ever wrote, and the great thing about it is, I don’t feel like stopping. Information is just flowing in my head and I feel like typing but, let me get back to my normal life. I know a few people who have missed me already (kujichocha), see you next time. I have totally nothing to do with the title of this post, I don't even know how they are related, a friend just suggested it.

Gods peace.